I’m two days late, but I just want to scream this out so people can at least send their thoughts and love out to the families/people involved.

COLUMBIA, S.C. - A Learjet has crashed while departing from a South Carolina airport, killing four people and critically injuring two others including rock band Blink-182’s former drummer.

My mum came into me on Saturday night saying that Travis was in a plane crash, and that someone called ‘Little Chris’ had died. At first she was like, “yeah but you like that kid called Little Chris don’t you? You know, the one on Celebrity Scissorhands? That one with the really annoying voice?” I was like, “wait, did you say ‘Little Chris’ or ‘Lil Chris’?” She was like “Little Chris”. I couldn’t help but feel relieved then, as Lil Chris is like, my hero. It would’ve been another Mark Speight reaction if that’d been him.

But then it sunk in.. there was a plane crash? Travis fucking Barker was involved? Four people have died, including Travis’ personal assistant and his bodyguard? Both the pilot and the co-pilot didn’t make it, and the other guy, DJ-AM (Adam Goldstein) has got fatal burns to his face? Wait, Travis has got fatal burns beneath the waist, which could mean LEG AMPUTATION?

(There’s loads of articles I could point you to, but I’ll for now just point to this thread on our forum. It has everything.)

For those who don’t know, Travis Barker was the drummer for a band named Blink-182 (I highly recommend them to you) who split in 2005. In my eyes, he is the most incredible drummer in the whole goddamned universe. He’s brilliant. Absolutely amazing.He’s on my wall in three different places, looking like a total legend compared to sell-out Tom Delonge (love ya) and whatever-happened-to-Mark-Hoppus. ^_^ (Although I think Travis and Mark are in the same band together, +44 or something, and I really like SOME of Angels and Airwaves (Tom’s new band)’s stuff.. Everything’s Magic is my favourite song ever I think.)

Barker had performed the night before at an event with former Jane’s Addiction singer Perry Farrell, Gavin DeGraw and DJ AM. Travis and Adam Goldstein, who perform together under the name TRVSDJ-AM, had been playing in Columbia, South Carolina.

It’s totally heartbreaking, really. Four people died. Four goddamned innocent people. Hell.

My thoughts are with them all. All the relatives of the four people who died, and with Adam and Travis. I swear on my life, if what the rumours are saying are true, and Travis may never be able to drum again, I may just completely break down. He’s simply such an awesome drummer. There’s no one like him.

Obviously I feel for the others, too, it’s just my reactions always go towards the people I’ve heard of. Crikey, it’ll still be so upsetting/it still is so upsetting knowing that all those people have died so suddenly, and that Adam has got burns to his face. He could die, or be seriously injured for the rest of his life. That’d be another soul lost.

That poor baby and Chris’ wife. Any girlfriends/boyfriends/husbands/wives of the pilot+co-pilot. Parents, grandparents, sons, daughters.. my thoughts go out to them all.

RIP.
x

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I know I’m boring, but no one’s spoken to me in like ages. =[ Busy? Yeah. I know how that feels. I hate this year.

And I feel like crap right now. Headache, cold, dizziness.. I’m on here for the first time in like ages, and that’s only because I wanted to sync my iPod. I get so distracted. Meh. Talking of iPods.. who’s seen the new Nano? Urgh. I don’t like it. I thought they were going in a new direction with the last generation, but obviously not. Apparently you shake it and it shuffles songs for you.. can you imagine just walking round with it then suddenly a new song cuts in? Haha. Anyway. I don’t like any of the colours either, I think the one I’ve got had better ones. Especially the green one. Mind you, I suppose the brighter colours appeal more to younger people? Meh, dunno. My iPod Nelliot is still my love, so I’m not too worried.

I’m just gunna plug something for a second. Because of my authorship overtaking my musicianship (don’t ask) I’ve decided to make a whole new site to show off my writings. If anyone fancies a read, please head on down to Pocket of Words (pocket.forgotten-twilight.net). I still don’t know whether putting each thing in a PDF was better than just putting it on the page itself.. any suggestions, let me know.

[finally something decent to write about.. even if no one really cares about it. xD]

I am absolutely raving mad right now. Fed up. Really, fed, up.

So those who follow Stephenie Meyer (yes, I told you no one will really care) will know that she was planning another book in the Twilight series named Midnight Sun. It was going to be the exact story of her first book Twilight, but in Edward Cullen (the lead male)’s POV. It would’ve been great, because, since all the Twilights are in Bella (lead girl)’s POV, we would be seeing a completely different story through someone else’s eyes. And so much happens to Edward in that first book; all his feelings for Bella, all the things he has to cope through to stop him from killing her, etc.

I WAS REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO IT. After Breaking Dawn (man, I still haven’t written a review) I’ve been having many doubts about the series, even though I thought the book was brilliant (an opinion no one else shares with me, apparently). My plan was to read Twilight again (I like plans btw, I always have some kind of plan, even when reading books xD) THEN go and buy Midnight Sun and read it, then read New Moon and finalise my opinion on it (the worst in the series imo) then read Eclipse, and THEN read Breaking Dawn again and decide whether it was decent or not. WHAT A BRILLIANT PLAN. YESYES. I would finally understand everything. I would no longer be confused out of my mind.

But then someone went and did THIS:

StephenieMeyer.com
As some of you may have heard, my partial draft of Midnight Sun was illegally posted on the Internet and has since been virally distributed without my knowledge or permission or the knowledge or permission of my publisher..

So where does this leave Midnight Sun? My first feeling was that there was no way to continue. Writing isn’t like math; in math, two plus two always equals four no matter what your mood is like. With writing, the way you feel changes everything. If I tried to write Midnight Sun now, in my current frame of mind, James would probably win and all the Cullens would die, which wouldn’t dovetail too well with the original story. In any case, I feel too sad about what has happened to continue working on Midnight Sun, and so it is on hold indefinitely.

That’s really horrible. Someone went and fekin leaked it, and now she’s not going to continue writing it for however long. SUCKS. I feel really bad for her tbh. She seemed to be so excited about that book. And I knew right from the first chapter that it would’ve definitely been better than Twilight in the way it was written.. the language she used for Edward was just so much better than that used for Bella. Argh.

The joke is, though, just for the hell of it, she posted the 12 chapters on her website. The 12 unedited and probably full of typos chapters of Midnight Sun. Probably the only stuff we’ll get for a while. I’m totally bummed and in a serious dilemma with myself.

1) I could go read the 12 chapters, like I went and read the first chapter that she’d posted however long ago. This would fuel my stress and would make up (slightly) for the fact that it might not be published any more.

2) Or, I could leave the chapters alone and forget about them like she would’ve wanted originally. This would be very hard for me as I am seriously helpless and weird when it comes to trying to stop myself from reading spoilers or whatever; it probably wouldn’t last. But then, if Smeyer DOES decide to finish the book, then it’ll be all the more amazing, because I won’t have already read it!

HELP ME! I feel guilty either way tbh. The 12 chapters may be taken off the site one day, and if Smeyer does decide to scrap the book, then I would’ve lost the chance to read it. But then if I do read it, there may not be much point in me buying the book anyway. Argh.

So yeah, just thought I’d rant. If anyone else was in this situation, what would they do? Read or not read? Give up or give in?

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On another note, I’ve found a new love for The All-American Rejects. I never thought about buying their albums before even though I’d heard quite a few of their songs already, but I’m glad I did. I went and got Move Along (2005) from HMV the other day along with Jason Mraz’s Mr A.Z (which I haven’t really listened to, but Worplay is awesome man) and hell, I’ve found a new favourite album. I’m just in love with every single song on it! It’s definitely going right up there in my top 5 albums. Brilliant, it is. I highly recommend that anyone who likes just one AAR song should definitely purchase this album. It’s total love. ^_^

OH AND, Smeyer is writing and Directing the next Jack’s Mannequin video. Be interesting, tbh. Won’t include vampires though, apparently. Meheh. =P

I’m starting to feel the school nerves already. Being away from home for a total of two weeks this summer has made me realise how quickly it’s all going. I mean, the holidays used to be like this amazing thing that we all loved because it was like, omgsixweeksoffschool!!!!11!!!2 But now it’s like, ack, only six weeks? Nuu!!

Yeah I was imprisoned at my grandparents house for EIGHT DAYS. THEY KEPT ME FOR EIGHT DAYS. I managed to get out of going dancing and attending church though, which was good, and I watched a total of two of my childhood Disney films that I ohso desperately wanted to see. I realised though that I think the Lion KIng 2 may be better than its prequel, and GusGus really is the best mouse ever (Cinderella). I realised also how quickly these people get married! It was like, glass slipper on, then next day they got married. The bloke didn’t even know her name! (Cinderelly!!) Haha, Disney’s just soo cute. Really. I was tempted to watch Beatrix Potter videos too, but didn’t have time. =/

I did alot of writing though, which brings me to mention this site I stumbled across while surfing Shelfari: WEbook. It’s like this place where writers go to share work, and eventually they can get it published. Knowing my luck the publishing part wont apply to me being a UK person (lets face it, America is probably the place in which these people reside) but still it looks fun. I haven’t read anyone’s work on there yet, but I can tell there’s going to be some real talent. I probably will join eventually, once I get my proper writing going again. Let me know if you do, or if any of you are already members. ^_^

And this random Disney Channel addict asked to be my friend on Shelfari. I was like, dude, I see you like Hannah Montana? xD

BAD NEWS. My mum didn’t like Twilight. LOL. She doesn’t see why Bella’s so amazingly attractive.. and I quote: “All I can find that makes her attractive is that she smells nice to these.. vampire people. I mean, why the hell did she just walk into school and suddenly everyone loves her? What is it about her?” She hasn’t read New Moon yet (haha, Jacob), but one of the things she said to me about Twilight (which is totally true) was: “Meyer always seems to invent girls that have more than one man chasing after them; Melanie/Wanda had Jared and Ian, and Bella has Edward, Mike Newton, Eric whatsit..” xD She also said that “the only characters I seem to understand are the Blacks, the bloke in the wheelchair and his son.” As you can tell, that kinda made me go all silly and start pointing frantically at New Moon mouthing “JACOB! JACOB! JACOB!” Oh dear. xD

But yeah she basically said that Meyer’s characters weren’t described in enough detail. Like, they were underdeveloped, and she had problems relating to them or finding redeeming qualities. She never knew who was Emmett and who was Jasper, and obviously she couldn’t see why the hell this Bella girl was so special. Sadly I agree with most of the things she said to me (however I know Jasper and Emmett apart.. they’re so cute) but I still can’t describe my love for this book. Just reading one page makes me go all funny!

I was quite fed up with the fact that I’ll have to wait a whole year to see Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince though. The date’s been moved from November to July next year, I think due to the writing strike? Dunno for sure. But Twilight’s meant to be out in November now, but there still isn’t a release date for the UK which is annoying.

Meh, enough of Twilight. I get so carried away. =’] (the name ‘Cullen’ was mentioned in the book I was reading. I feel like such a fangirl, man. Help me.)

Rachael at CalmBanana.co.uk mentioned the site faceyourmanga.com. Well, I had a go, and this is what turned out:

It’s pretty close, actually. The hair ain’t exact, but it’s the best I could get it. What you all think?