I’m two days late, but I just want to scream this out so people can at least send their thoughts and love out to the families/people involved.

COLUMBIA, S.C. - A Learjet has crashed while departing from a South Carolina airport, killing four people and critically injuring two others including rock band Blink-182’s former drummer.

My mum came into me on Saturday night saying that Travis was in a plane crash, and that someone called ‘Little Chris’ had died. At first she was like, “yeah but you like that kid called Little Chris don’t you? You know, the one on Celebrity Scissorhands? That one with the really annoying voice?” I was like, “wait, did you say ‘Little Chris’ or ‘Lil Chris’?” She was like “Little Chris”. I couldn’t help but feel relieved then, as Lil Chris is like, my hero. It would’ve been another Mark Speight reaction if that’d been him.

But then it sunk in.. there was a plane crash? Travis fucking Barker was involved? Four people have died, including Travis’ personal assistant and his bodyguard? Both the pilot and the co-pilot didn’t make it, and the other guy, DJ-AM (Adam Goldstein) has got fatal burns to his face? Wait, Travis has got fatal burns beneath the waist, which could mean LEG AMPUTATION?

(There’s loads of articles I could point you to, but I’ll for now just point to this thread on our forum. It has everything.)

For those who don’t know, Travis Barker was the drummer for a band named Blink-182 (I highly recommend them to you) who split in 2005. In my eyes, he is the most incredible drummer in the whole goddamned universe. He’s brilliant. Absolutely amazing.He’s on my wall in three different places, looking like a total legend compared to sell-out Tom Delonge (love ya) and whatever-happened-to-Mark-Hoppus. ^_^ (Although I think Travis and Mark are in the same band together, +44 or something, and I really like SOME of Angels and Airwaves (Tom’s new band)’s stuff.. Everything’s Magic is my favourite song ever I think.)

Barker had performed the night before at an event with former Jane’s Addiction singer Perry Farrell, Gavin DeGraw and DJ AM. Travis and Adam Goldstein, who perform together under the name TRVSDJ-AM, had been playing in Columbia, South Carolina.

It’s totally heartbreaking, really. Four people died. Four goddamned innocent people. Hell.

My thoughts are with them all. All the relatives of the four people who died, and with Adam and Travis. I swear on my life, if what the rumours are saying are true, and Travis may never be able to drum again, I may just completely break down. He’s simply such an awesome drummer. There’s no one like him.

Obviously I feel for the others, too, it’s just my reactions always go towards the people I’ve heard of. Crikey, it’ll still be so upsetting/it still is so upsetting knowing that all those people have died so suddenly, and that Adam has got burns to his face. He could die, or be seriously injured for the rest of his life. That’d be another soul lost.

That poor baby and Chris’ wife. Any girlfriends/boyfriends/husbands/wives of the pilot+co-pilot. Parents, grandparents, sons, daughters.. my thoughts go out to them all.

RIP.
x

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I know I’m boring, but no one’s spoken to me in like ages. =[ Busy? Yeah. I know how that feels. I hate this year.

And I feel like crap right now. Headache, cold, dizziness.. I’m on here for the first time in like ages, and that’s only because I wanted to sync my iPod. I get so distracted. Meh. Talking of iPods.. who’s seen the new Nano? Urgh. I don’t like it. I thought they were going in a new direction with the last generation, but obviously not. Apparently you shake it and it shuffles songs for you.. can you imagine just walking round with it then suddenly a new song cuts in? Haha. Anyway. I don’t like any of the colours either, I think the one I’ve got had better ones. Especially the green one. Mind you, I suppose the brighter colours appeal more to younger people? Meh, dunno. My iPod Nelliot is still my love, so I’m not too worried.

I’m just gunna plug something for a second. Because of my authorship overtaking my musicianship (don’t ask) I’ve decided to make a whole new site to show off my writings. If anyone fancies a read, please head on down to Pocket of Words (pocket.forgotten-twilight.net). I still don’t know whether putting each thing in a PDF was better than just putting it on the page itself.. any suggestions, let me know.

I’m back at school now. It’s all getting scary.

I’m doing my GCSEs this year - General Certificate of.. Secondary Education, I think it stands for - and I’m practically crapping it. Especially music. Music’s hell.

I absolutely love my music lessons. They’re fun, relaxing, not easy but certainly ‘do-able’, and we have like the best teacher ever teaching us (although we did have two, but one retired at the end of last year. Pretty fed up with that - it’s not the same without her). But the exams just sound scary. We have to do, I think, two performance exams. That’s one solo, and one ensemble. I don’t know which one I’m dreading the most, tbh.

Because I ain’t that good at what I do. I call myself a guitarist, but I’m not exactly a great one. I don’t find it hard, I just can’t do it that well. I find myself envying all the kids on YouTube who can do these amazing covers of the simplest songs, and they’ve only been doing it all for a year or so. I know the only thing I can do really is practise more, but the fact that my room’s the size of a shoebox and my dad hates every ounce of electric guitar music - not to mention the fact that I’m shy anyway and worried about what other people think - I never have the motivation to. I really should, though. I know that. But really, I wish I’d just kept at the guitar the first time round, when I was ten. I might be happy with my progress right now if I had. Meh.

I’m hoping that someone will lift my spirits a bit over that. I’m really dreading having to sort out ensemble groups and pieces to play - all the people I know have already got theirs sorted. I could ask them to join mine, but why would they wanna do another one? Playing in front of an examiner is bad enough the first time, but again? Nah. fghsrtyhrth. Sometimes I wish I was a singer. All they have to do is find another singer (our class is full with them) and sing ‘Defying Gravity’ from Wicked with them. Which I’m so jealous about, btw. To sing or have anything to do with a Wicked song would be just, awesome. I want the book with geetar chords in, or something. Either that or I just want someone to act it all out with me - I have cravings to be Glinda in the ‘Popular’ scene. I used to act exactly like that when I was young, happy and hyper. ^_^

Meh. Enough about that, anyway. A while ago I blogged about my friend who was going to have an operation in August. If anyone can remember what I said, she’s been suffering from major heart problems for most of her life, meaning she had to have a pacemaker installed (is that the right word?) to keep her heart beating. Well earlier in the year one of the wires in her pacemaker came loose, consequently tugging harshly on her heart. She had to have an emergency operation (which she refused to have during schooltime, might I add) to fix the pacemaker and stop herself from dying in any second. I also commented on how amazing she’s learnt to deal with her problems - she laughs it all off and stays positive.. truly inspiring to those around her who suffer from any kind of illness.

Well, the operation was successful, and she’s fine. I’m so darned happy. All through the summer there was that nagging feeling in my mind, telling somehow she hadn’t made it. And it made it all worse not knowing her phone number or anything to check on her progress. But no, my nagging feeling was wrong, and she’s at school. Has to wear her right arm in a sling-type thing though to stop the muscles around her pacemaker from over-working - and the first thing she said when I asked was ‘I really hate having to wear this darned thing!’ - but other than that, she’s brilliant. Completely the same person; happy, laughing, smiling.. in some ways, she even looks better than she used to. There’s a new kind of sparkle in her eyes, you know? I’m just so happy for her, and hope that she never has to go through anything like that again. I think I was probably more worried than she was, though!

Homework and coursework’s starting to get tough, I think. I had art homework on the first day. I mean, srsly. I got stuff to do for catering and RE too, and no doubt I’ll have more next week. Ugh. I have to buy new PE clothes too, as I never really had time over the holidays. And I still need to do stuff to my Q*Bee quilt - somethings mucking up badly and whenever I try to direct-link to images on my forgotten-twilight.net/qbee directory, it comes up with the blank wordpress page saying ‘no posts here!’ or whatever, never showing the image. It’s especially bad with MyQuiltAdmin; whenever I go and try to trade with Bees who use that silly program, it never lets me enter my patch or anything - instead it comes up with ‘please use a valid image’. I mean, ffs. So, eventually, I’m gonna turn my quilt into a subdomain and display it in a similar way to my tradepost, just because wordpress never mucks things up on subdomains.. but I may have just jinxed it now. =P

But before all that, first I have to motivate myself.. dfgfrthbbdfgb. IT’S TOO HARD. ^_^ help.